Do you remember when you started masturbating?! I surely don’t. I knew I liked to touch myself at a super young age. Not that I knew what the hell I was doing of course. I just knew it felt good. I’m also pretty sure my parents knew about it but didn’t say much. It wasn’t until high school that I found out what I was doing actually had a name!
On the real, in high school, I was a total novice. I had no clue what I was doing. I would just rub my clit til it got super sensitive. And I thought that was it. No insertion, no fingering nothing. I was a minor, so it wasn’t like I could go to a sex shop or spencers to get toys. My mom checked the mail so I most certainly couldn’t order online. So ya girl only had her fingers to work with.
It wasn’t until college when I got my first toy. Turning 18 was lit. Ya girl got tattoos, her tongue pierced & sex toys. (Don’t you just love going away for the 1st time?!) It was a basic vibrating dildo with a silicone top. I remember it was purple, it wasn’t very loud and burned through AA batteries with the quickness. It lasted for some time to, which I have to say was pretty impressive. I bought my first bullet my sophomore year of college and OH MAN was that thing awesome. It was powerful and my clit couldn’t get enough of it. I used it every chance I could; in between classes, after meals, after a long night of partying, whenever. But I had to stop buying them because I was kept breaking them. And in college, I was all types of broke so I just stopped spending money on them.
College was a time of masturbation exploration for. Still, I really didn’t know what I was doing. I was fucking myself with my dildo, but not really enjoying myself. Especially if I was doing it alone. If I was having phone sex, it was so much better. (Yes, ya girl loves phone sex. But that’s a different story for a different day) It got me through A LOT of hard times in college and post college before I met my boyfriend.
Now?! I love to masturbate. I don’t masturbate every day but at least 2-3 times a week. Sometimes more depending on how I’m feeling. It’s something I enjoy and I still learn things about my body. I’m still learning how body reactions to different positions and simulations. I enjoy collecting toys of all shapes, sizes, vibrating/non-vibrating, battery operated or rechargeable, dildos or small vibes. I like them all.
For me now masturbating is an evolution each time. I start out my gently rubbing my clit through my panties. There’s something gratifying about feeling my clit swell through my panties. Then I have to them off. I continue to rub my clit some more, applying a little pressure. I love to feel it throb. Usually, I’m simultaneously sucking on what every dildo I’ve decided on for that moment. I like to get it sloppy & wet like I’m giving the best head of my life. I like dick wet before it slides in my pussy. Some nights I go all the way; different positions, changing out of toys and making sure I squirt. Other times I just want to feel. I keep it simple but most certainly pleasurable.