Just a chick who likes porn

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Hey Lovers,

For as long as I can remember I have always been into watching porn. From a very young age, I would sneak into my dad’s stash when I would get home from school, just before he and my mother would get home from school. I knew all the sex channels (this was before the days of direct tv, dish network & fios) I didn’t really discover internet porn until high school when I was allowed to be on the computer without my mom hovering over me. But I also got caught ALL THE TIME. My mother works in IT, she knew the in’s and outs of computers, so needless to say she knew how to check the ‘history’ to see what I’ve been looking at.

Needless to say I was hyped when I went away to college. I didn’t really have roommates so I had the ability to watch as much porn as I wanted. That’s when I discovered toys; vibrators, dildos…all of it. I was celibate for the better part of my 4 years in college. So porn became my main sexual outlet. I actually started curating what I liked so if I didn’t have a lot of time to rub one out, I knew where to look to cum hard and fast.

When it came to watching porn, I just have an attraction to watching folks have sex. I didn’t and still don’t have a specific type of porn that I like to watch.  Some girls like girl on girls or others only boy on girl. Me? I can start by watching girl on girl and end up cummin’ from orgies. I can easily watch 15-20 videos before I actually cum. It really is all about what turns me on the in that moment.

Sometimes I need to get off quickly so I go to a couple of my favorites. Even down to the point in the scene that I like. Other times I just want to explore. I may have seen a gif of a scene on Tumblr and want to see more. When those moments happen I just like to enjoy myself. I might just slowly rub my clit with my fingers. I might incorporate my vibrator. Or I might go all out and fuck myself until I’m exhausted.

There was a point when I could track when my period was coming based on HOW much porn I watched. The week leading up to my period I was watching porn. I didn’t and still don’t watch porn every day. But when my period was coming I was watching porn every day, sometimes twice a day. I just wanted to get off quickly and easily.

I can’t lie though, I always love when I tell a guy I love to watch porn. There’s an excitement in his eyes when I say that. It’s like they think it’s cool when  chick likes porn as well. It’s almost like they don’t have to be embarrassed or have to hide it. Quite frankly I rather watch along with him, if it gets both of us off.

Don’t get it twisted, I wasn’t always proud of watching porn. Plenty of times I felt ashamed of knowing that I like porn. My mother shamed my dad for years. When she found out I was sneaking to watching she blew a gasket (rightfully so.) But even when I was in college, she would tell me not to watch porn on my laptop. I would get super nervous when she wanted to use my laptop for something because I didn’t want her to go snooping through my stuff. (Which she was prone to doing.) Plenty of times I’ve had friends tell me how they were saved from porn addiction. I felt like I was doing something wrong by enjoying porn. I felt like every job I didn’t get, every bad thing that happened to me it was because I failed at abstaining from porn.

It has taken me some time to come to terms that I like porn. And you know what? I’m ojay with that. When I’m not with my boyfriend, it helps me get off. It’s helped me explore my body more. It’s helped me discover certain things that I enjoy sexually and things I don’t enjoy. I know porn is not reality. But in the moment when my clit is throbbing, it has saved me plenty of times.

Are you into porn? Let me know!

Lips & Vibrators

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